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What are we afraid of?

"We must be willing to let go of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us" by Joseph Campbell.  This was one of the many quotes I decided to put on my vision board for this year 2018.  I remember I hesitated for a few minutes to put it down on my board.  I went back and forth holding it in my hands not sure if I wanted to put it.  The words in this quote scared me a little and I couldn't put it.  I finally had my husband read it and give me his input, and all he said 'put it if you want to, is up to you'.  I finally decided to put it, not knowing that exactly this year my life would be turned around completely, and forever change who I am.  

If you read the quote carefully, it is telling you that you must be willing to give up all that you have planned, for me that was terrifying.  I mean, I have dreams, and goals I want to accomplish this year.  But what I realized after being diagnosed with Cancer is that life can change in an instant, in the blink of an eye your world can be turned upside down.  All the goals and plans you had created for yourself are now at a STOP.  What do you do when you are told you have an illness, have to go through surgery and chemo, what do you do?  You come to a realization that life is very short, and you are not in control as you think you are of what can happen.  You let go of fear, and you become brave, you speak your mind, and let go of all the bullshit you cared about before.  So when I read the quote that I hesitated to put I realize that it was meant to go in my vision board for this year.  It was not a coincidence, a new life, a new journey has started for me, and throughout these past few months it has become more clear to me what I want to do and what my purpose is.  This illness has push me to go after my dreams, and do more even if I fail.  


I encourage you to look at your life today, to pause, and ask yourself what are you afraid of, what is stopping you from living your best life.  Forget about what people might think or say, how you might look in front of your friends and family.  Fear will always be there, but you must be willing to go against it and start doing that which fuels your soul.  It is good to have goals, and plan but be ready to have some detours and roadblocks.  I know for myself, this year is all about transformation, healing, and service.  As I look at my vision board I can see that everything I wanted for this year is happening in such a beautiful way.  I was shocked to see that my vision board had quotes that only spoke of changes, metamorphosis, rebirth, weird huh.  But it is to tell you that you are exactly where you need to be today, you just need to perhaps listen to that little voice inside you that tells you which way to go and what your purpose is.  Do it afraid my friend!

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