Trust the signs and your journey

I remember sitting in my sofa with my head up almost as if I was looking up to the sky and asking God, the universe how I ended up here with Cancer.  I was thinking of the plans I had for this year, of traveling, growing my business, and now all of that had come to a stop.  I kept having this conversation in my head with God.  How at 33 years of age I was handed this illness, why me? But then in that same conversation I said to God, I know these were my plans, and I had many things I wanted to do, but I let go and let you guide me and let your plans be done in my life.  After I had this conversation with God, I then just get my phone and get on Instagram because that is what we do right when we don't have nothing else to do, we just look at our phones.  So I scroll through my Instagram and the first post I see stops me cold, as I read it I was amazed at how every single word in that post was for me.  It was weird, but throughout my lifetime I seen 'weird' or what some would call it signs that tell you everything will be fine.  This post was a sign that the universe was letting me know everything will be fine.  I knew at that moment that I have to go through this journey because it will teach me something, and that even though I have to go through the process of getting surgery, chemo and possibly another surgery God will be with me no matter what.  The last sentence in that post confirmed it all as it said 'trust me to show you what to do when you have finished what you are doing now'.  I will guide you step by step as you bend your will to mine'.  You can call it coincidence but for me to read that from a random post on Instagram right after I was thinking about the plans and dreams I had for myself, and I decide to let go at that moment, and receive this answer that to me is not coincidence.  I left the post I read on that day on this post for you to read.

I know that many of us see things sometimes that shake us.  Maybe you are going through a situation that you do not see a way out, and you ask yourself whether you should stay or go.  Trust me you have been receiving signs all along, your intuition, your gut tells you what to do.  But as humans we are sometimes are stubborn, or we don't want to believe the signs that are given to us everyday because we doubt them.  Don't doubt when your spirit, your intuition whatever you want to call it is telling you something is not right.  Listen to it.  I knew this word was for me, and I felt peace right after.  I cannot tell you the amount of people that have told me 'omg but you do not look like you are receiving chemo'.  I have to tell you that I already had 3 chemo treatments and my energy, appetite is better than it was before I received it.  I know that this has changed me, and after Cancer I know now what I want to do, what is my purpose here in life.  Before Cancer I still was not sure on what I wanted to do, I always knew that I wanted to serve people but I did not want to listen to it.  I was focusing more on 'success'  but success is what you want to define it as,  I would constantly beat myself up because I thought at 33 I wasn't where I was supposed to be.  And after Cancer, all of that stress, worry about life and insignificant things went away.  So if you ask me I believe that this is a test that was meant to happen.  Instead of asking why me, I now say thank you because I will come out stronger, and wiser.  Be patient with yourself, trust your journey as it will lead you to where you are supposed to be.  Don't force things, just flow as the water.  My only hope is that my journey can inspire you, much love and blessings.