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Is it Cancer or Chemo

 To hear that you have Cancer is one of the most devastating word you can ever try to assimilate.  I was told in 2018 that I had Cancer, and it took me by surprise.  I was shocked, in disbelief, and thought of death right away.  I knew there was something wrong with me at that moment because I was sick for months, but never thought it was Cancer.  This disease is hard on both the one who has it and those who care for you.  However, many think that having Cancer is horrible which it is but not many know that chemotherapy is what really deteriorates a person.  This treatment is full of toxicity, it kills the bad cells, but also the good cells.  It affects the entire body and plenty of times its side effects are sometimes hard to deal with.

When it comes to chemotherapy, we only think about hair loss, but that is not its only weapon.  I have been taking chemotherapy for 2 years and a half now and I had good moments and bad moments.  The bad moments were really hard to deal with.  Recently around Thanksgiving 2020 I experienced an array of symptoms from a new chemo my oncologist wanted me to start on.  I actually was taken off this chemo after I experienced multiple days of fever, cough, and finally blisters appeared under my feet which did not allowed me to walk for several days, I could not move due to the pain the blisters were causing.  I had extreme fatigue which also affects your mood.  I felt during this hard time that death was knocking at my door.  I have experienced hair loss twice due to chemo, days without no type of energy, etc.  In reality chemotherapy is worst than Cancer itself, but is also a way of survival at the moment for many patients like myself.  It is an experience that is hard to deal with, your kids see you sick, your family feels powerless. 

What are a few things that you can do if you have a loved one with Cancer:

Try to be supportive by offering help

You can try and cook for them, clean for them

Offer words of support, prayer if they are a believer

Do not take it personal if they are in a bad mood, or grouchy this is not easy to deal with

Put yourself in their shoes, it is a hard disease to deal with plus the treatment

Know that chemo causes mood swings among other symptoms

Do not get mad at them if they don't want to eat, many of us lose our appetite

Love wins it all, just offer your love and support that goes a long way.

Love, Milly

Comments

  1. Eli SantanaDecember 22, 2020 at 9:38 AM

    Love you so much Milly!
    Thank you for sharing this with us. Praying for you always.

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  2. chulyn81December 23, 2020 at 1:59 PM

    😘😘😘 Keep fighting and stay strong. The mind is another battle ground. Love you much!

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